[He was stupid to think even just showing Jake how things were, how it felt to generate a conversation, because this was how Jake learned...That it would change anything. Even if they hadn't fought, what they had was so completely broken, there just wasn't any hope of salvaging it.
But it's not his first instinct to hit Jake. Even after all this time, and through everything they've done to each other, his touch still makes Dirk react. Feel that spark like being touched by a live wire, and his first instinct is to lean into it, to get more, like he always has.
But it's only a moment, before he remembers, and he drops the clothes he was holding to fist his hands in Jake's shirt and attempts to push him back. His grip is weak and the tension so thick in his body he's actively trembling from the effort of reigning it in, makes it so ineffective his ex- For that's what he is now, won't even move.
It isn't until he talks and feels the liquid drip onto his mouth as a result, that he even realizes he's started crying]
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[He was stupid to think even just showing Jake how things were, how it felt to generate a conversation, because this was how Jake learned...That it would change anything. Even if they hadn't fought, what they had was so completely broken, there just wasn't any hope of salvaging it.
But it's not his first instinct to hit Jake. Even after all this time, and through everything they've done to each other, his touch still makes Dirk react. Feel that spark like being touched by a live wire, and his first instinct is to lean into it, to get more, like he always has.
But it's only a moment, before he remembers, and he drops the clothes he was holding to fist his hands in Jake's shirt and attempts to push him back. His grip is weak and the tension so thick in his body he's actively trembling from the effort of reigning it in, makes it so ineffective his ex- For that's what he is now, won't even move.
It isn't until he talks and feels the liquid drip onto his mouth as a result, that he even realizes he's started crying]
You have to.